getting back on the horse
They say that when you fall off a horse or a bike or a bandwagon (what even is a bandwagon?) that the best thing to do is get straight back on. Before the fear or the reason that you fell off becomes too much of a ‘thing’, so that you never ride again.
So there are numerous reasons why I haven’t written a blog post in over a year. Too little time is the excuse I use most often. My actual blog platform is clunky and needs updating being another. No one reads blogs anymore. Even Design Sponge is no longer. Writers block. That’s a good excuse! I don’t have anything to write about. I’m busy. I travel. I suddenly find myself with two businesses. I’m up early. I go to bed late. I’m a mother, a wife, a daughter, a sister. I have a new puppy. I haven’t even watched Season 3 of The Crown yet. There definitely isn’t any time to write a blog post or a book or an anything. There is barely enough brain power to write an Instagram post or an email.
All true. All valid excuses. But the real truth, the real reason I’ve stopped writing, is a mixture of fear and perfectionism and procrastination. One leads to the other.
The fear that no-one is reading it, because my writing isn’t good enough or perfect enough, (the photos definitely aren’t good enough) and that ultimately I’m not good enough or qualified enough to be writing about interiors, and so therefore the procrastination kicks in, and I put off writing about anything, for a while longer. For a year. And a bit. After all, did I mention that I’m busy…
Time to get back on the horse. I’m still not entirely sure what I’ll write about, or that anyone will read it. But as someone wise recently told me – in order to be a better runner, you must run. In order to be a better parent, you must parent. In order to be a better cook you must season the pasta, simmer the sauce, stir the pot. It’s time I stirred the pot.
By the way, the perfectionist in me looked up bandwagon in the dictionary. What do you know – it is a wagon used for carrying a band in a parade. Of course it is. It is also an activity or a cause, currently fashionable and attracting increasing support.
So, thanks to all of you reading this for your support, for hanging in there, for signing up to a mailing list that, up until now, never mails. And for giving me a reason to start again… I’m not going to make any promises I may not keep about how often I’ll post, but done is better than perfect, and one day at a time seems like a good place to begin. And if I write only for myself, then that will be good enough.