getting back on the horse

They say that when you fall off a horse or a bike or a bandwagon (what even is a bandwagon?) that the best thing to do is get straight back on. Before the fear or the reason that you fell off becomes too much of a ‘thing’, so that you never ride again.

So there are numerous reasons why I haven’t written a blog post in over a year. Too little time is the excuse I use most often. My actual blog platform is clunky and needs updating being another. No one reads blogs anymore. Even Design Sponge is no longer. Writers block. That’s a good excuse! I don’t have anything to write about. I’m busy. I travel. I suddenly find myself with two businesses. I’m up early. I go to bed late. I’m a mother, a wife, a daughter, a sister. I have a new puppy. I haven’t even watched Season 3 of The Crown yet. There definitely isn’t any time to write a blog post or a book or an anything. There is barely enough brain power to write an Instagram post or an email.

All true. All valid excuses. But the real truth, the real reason I’ve stopped writing, is a mixture of fear and perfectionism and procrastination. One leads to the other.

The fear that no-one is reading it, because my writing isn’t good enough or perfect enough, (the photos definitely aren’t good enough) and that ultimately I’m not good enough or qualified enough to be writing about interiors, and so therefore the procrastination kicks in, and I put off writing about anything, for a while longer. For a year. And a bit. After all, did I mention that I’m busy…

Time to get back on the horse. I’m still not entirely sure what I’ll write about, or that anyone will read it. But as someone wise recently told me – in order to be a better runner, you must run. In order to be a better parent, you must parent. In order to be a better cook you must season the pasta, simmer the sauce, stir the pot.  It’s time I stirred the pot.

By the way, the perfectionist in me looked up bandwagon in the dictionary. What do you know – it is a wagon used for carrying a band in a parade. Of course it is. It is also an activity or a cause, currently fashionable and attracting increasing support.

So, thanks to all of you reading this for your support, for hanging in there, for signing up to a mailing list that, up until now, never mails. And for giving me a reason to start again… I’m not going to make any promises I may not keep about how often I’ll post, but done is better than perfect, and one day at a time seems like a good place to begin. And if I write only for myself, then that will be good enough.

Amanda xx

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  • maureen mcginnity

    April 1, 2020 at 9:02 am

    I haven’t even watched season 1 of the Crown yet….and I keep banging on about it! Nice to have you back and I do read blogs xx

    • Amanda

      April 1, 2020 at 10:59 am

      What better time to watch than while in isolation! We can compare notes! Thanks for both reading and commenting! I really do appreciate it so much. xx

  • Jane

    April 1, 2020 at 8:49 pm

    My darling. I’m always here for you. The very same thoughts plague me and stop from posting on Insta. So daft. I have so many stories I’d love to share with my old Planetarians (remember them?!). I miss that joyful sense of camaraderie. Maybe it’s time to start a new blog? J x

    • Amanda

      April 2, 2020 at 3:40 pm

      When you put it like this, it really is daft Jane. I miss your insta posts, and your blog. I still marvel at how those early friendships have endured. It’s fabulous.

  • Ally

    April 1, 2020 at 9:06 pm

    Back in that horse in style
    Xx

    • Amanda

      April 2, 2020 at 3:40 pm

      Maybe not in so much style, but hanging on tightly!! xx

  • Karen Kiely

    April 1, 2020 at 9:29 pm

    I love your style Amanda and the little snippets you write on Instagram. Looking forward to your blog post whatever path they take

    • Amanda

      April 2, 2020 at 3:41 pm

      Thanks so much Karen. So lovely of you to say. I really appreciate it! xx

  • Zana Lokmer

    April 1, 2020 at 10:54 pm

    It’s so good to read your posts again Amanda 🌺 can’t wait for the next one.

    • Amanda

      April 2, 2020 at 3:42 pm

      Thanks lovely Zana. Your support is always so appreciated. Miss you!!

  • Ann Davis

    April 2, 2020 at 4:43 am

    Hi 👋 Amanda
    You are one of the best writers around and I love everything you write.

    Thank you 🙏 for giving me a smile this morning 😂 and starting me on observer book 📚 library 📚
    Love,
    Ann Davis

    • Amanda

      April 2, 2020 at 3:43 pm

      Thanks Ann – you are always there with a lovely comment, and I so appreciate it. xx

  • Sue Syben

    April 2, 2020 at 8:40 am

    Thank you Amanda, I am looking forward to more blogs. I love everything you do, your shop, your foraging, your family (love your girls names), your ability to let us share your life, and beautiful Maude!
    Reading about you is like reading about me, but a few years on in the chaos of family life, and without a business like yours. My love of colour, visual beauty, flowers, food, books and all things interior sounds so similar to you. Even the procrastination and not thinking I am good enough!
    Your writing gives me so much joy,
    Thank you xx

    • Amanda

      April 2, 2020 at 3:44 pm

      I think this comment almost made me cry. Thanks so much Sue. Take care xx

  • Jan Fry

    April 2, 2020 at 2:37 pm

    All those doubts you have are groundless.
    We all love your writing, your humour, the gorgeous photos, tips, inspiration… do I need to go on? There’s heaps more, and we love you and will happily take whatever you can give us in your busy schedule. xx

    • Amanda

      April 2, 2020 at 3:44 pm

      Thanks so much my lovely supportive friend. xx

  • Jane Barber

    April 20, 2020 at 9:18 pm

    I don’t think you know what a clever writer you are! Go you! LOVE your style too 🙂

    • Amanda

      April 30, 2020 at 10:34 pm

      You’re too kind xx